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The actor lay back in the grass & forced laughter from his throat. This was his read on grief. Josie thought doing nothing would have been more realistic. When your girlfriend dies in a car accident, it takes a while to believe it. The realization comes later, when you understand you will never see her again. When you go to wash the clothes, & there are her clothes, & you don't know whether to wash them or not, & you think, not, because that would mean fewer particles of her existing in the world, the smell of her body which was now underground, that particular scent will never happen again.